Today, I turn 50.
And instead of shrinking from the number, I am fully — joyfully — stepping into it.
This is the beginning of my second season, a season where I am old enough to know better, still young enough to say yes to magic, and finally wise enough to live life on my own terms. Turning 50 feels like the unlocking of a new chapter, one I’ve spent years preparing for through healing, growth, and deep spiritual awakening.
Most of all, this milestone feels like a celebration of coming home to myself.
A Season of Full Spiritual Expression
For years, I tiptoed around my spiritual gifts. I diluted them, softened them, made them more digestible for others.
But this new season?
She’s not apologizing for her magic.
But this new season?
She’s not apologizing for her magic.
I embrace my spirituality completely — my intuition, my manifestation practice, my deep connection to energy, the moon, and the truth of who I am.
I am honoring my gifts not only for myself, but for the people I am here to serve. My work in manifestation, mindset, and intuitive development — especially for those with aphantasia — is not just my calling. It is my contribution to the world.
A Season of Boundaries and Self-Respect
One of the great blessings of fifty is clarity.
I now understand that boundaries are not walls — they are bridges back to myself.
They allow me to show up with integrity, to protect my energy, and to welcome relationships that are reciprocal, loving, and aligned.
They allow me to show up with integrity, to protect my energy, and to welcome relationships that are reciprocal, loving, and aligned.
This season will be grounded in saying:
- No when my soul says no
- Yes only when it’s a full-body yes
- And never again to shrinking, overgiving, or abandoning myself
A Season of Loving Life Completely
Life in my 50s isn’t about rushing, proving, or perfecting.
It’s about savoring.
It’s about savoring.
The long walks that clear my mind.
The deep conversations that nourish my heart.
The spiritual practices that remind me of who I truly am.
The joy of building a business that aligns with my purpose.
The freedom of being fully, unapologetically myself.
The deep conversations that nourish my heart.
The spiritual practices that remind me of who I truly am.
The joy of building a business that aligns with my purpose.
The freedom of being fully, unapologetically myself.
I love life more now than ever — not because it’s perfect, but because I am present.
50 Years, 5 Big Lessons
Here are some of the core lessons I’m carrying into this new era, many of which I’ve had the privilege of shaping through my personal journey and my work:
1. Your intuition is always speaking — even if you don’t “see” it.
Aphantasia taught me that intuition isn’t about visuals. It’s about knowing, sensing, and trusting. Your inner guidance is real, even if it comes in whispers rather than pictures.
2. Manifestation is not about forcing. It’s about aligning.
The CBAR cycle I teach — Conceive, Believe, Achieve, Receive — changed not only my clients’ lives, but my own. When you align your energy with your intention, the universe meets you halfway.
3. Boundaries are a spiritual practice.
They aren’t acts of rejection — they are acts of reverence. You cannot stay in your power if you consistently abandon it for others.
4. Healing doesn’t make you perfect — it makes you whole.
Chakra work, shadow work, and emotional honesty have shown me that healing isn’t about “fixing” myself. It’s about returning to myself.
5. You are never too old to rewrite your story.
At 50, I am reinventing, expanding, and becoming more “me” than I have ever been. Age is not a limitation — it is initiation.
Here’s to the Next 50
So here I am:
50 and fabulous.
50 and fearless.
50 and spiritually grounded, energetically aligned, and wildly excited for what’s next.
50 and fabulous.
50 and fearless.
50 and spiritually grounded, energetically aligned, and wildly excited for what’s next.
If my first season was about learning who I am, this one is about living who I am.
Here’s to the beginning of the most expansive, magical, sovereign chapter of my life — and to the knowing that the best truly is yet to come.
✨ Happy 50th Birthday to me.
And cheers to all the versions of me that carried me here.
And cheers to all the versions of me that carried me here.
Every year, the energy of 11/11 carries a special vibration. You’ve probably seen 11:11 on the clock and felt a little cosmic nudge — as if the universe was whispering, pay attention. On November 11th, that energy expands into what many call the 11/11 Portal — a powerful moment to align with your higher self, release what’s holding you back, and step into the next version of your life with clarity and confidence.
What Is the 11/11 Portal?
In numerology, the number 11 is known as a Master Number — the frequency of intuition, awakening, and spiritual insight. When it doubles to 11/11, its power amplifies, creating an energetic gateway between your human self and your higher consciousness. Think of it as a vibrational doorway where your thoughts, feelings, and intentions are magnetized.
On this day, the universe asks you to pause. To reflect. To remember that you are not separate from the energy you wish to call in — you are that energy.
11/11 is often called a manifestation portal, but it’s really about alignment — not forcing outcomes, but tuning your frequency to match your desires.
The Astrology: Last Quarter Moon in Leo
This year’s 11/11 portal happens under a Last Quarter Moon in Leo — and that combination is both fiery and reflective.
The Last Quarter Moon is a time for release and recalibration. It’s when we look back on the lunar cycle and decide what’s ready to be completed or let go of before a new beginning. It’s an inward-turning phase that invites forgiveness, clarity, and closure.
Leo brings heart energy into the mix — self-expression, courage, and the authentic desire to be seen. But with the Moon waning, it’s less about being on stage and more about owning your light from within.
Together, this portal and moon phase say:
✨ Release what dims your light.
✨ Let go of old versions of yourself that crave approval.
✨ Reclaim your joy, your playfulness, your creativity.
✨ Release what dims your light.
✨ Let go of old versions of yourself that crave approval.
✨ Reclaim your joy, your playfulness, your creativity.
This isn’t a time for chasing — it’s a time for surrendering to the truth of who you are and allowing that truth to magnetize what’s next.
What You Should Know
The 11/11 portal is often portrayed as a wish-making day, but it’s deeper than that. It’s an energetic checkpoint that helps you align with your next chapter. Here’s what’s most important to remember:
💫 Awareness is the real activation. Your power comes from noticing what you think, feel, and believe — and consciously choosing thoughts that support your growth.
💫 Release is manifestation. With the Last Quarter Moon, clearing space is the ritual. You can’t receive new energy if your hands (or your heart) are full of old stories.
💫 Heart first, logic later. Leo reminds you that intuition and authenticity must lead the way. You don’t have to have it all figured out. You just have to be honest about what you love and who you are.
What You Can Do
If you want to work with the energy of the 11/11 portal, here are a few simple rituals and practices to help you connect:
1. Clear and Release
Grab a notebook or piece of paper and write down everything you’re ready to let go of — fears, doubts, outdated goals, self-criticism, people-pleasing. Burn or tear the paper as a symbolic act of release.
2. Set a Heart-Aligned Intention
Leo energy invites you to create from the heart. Write one powerful “I am” statement that reflects the version of you you’re ready to embody.
Examples:
Examples:
- I am boldly shining my authentic light.
- I am attracting opportunities that align with my purpose.
- I am living with ease, creativity, and confidence.
If you have aphantasia (like me), you don’t have to visualize it — feel it instead. Tune into the sensation of that version of you: the confidence in your body, the warmth in your heart, the peace in your mind.
3. Take Aligned Action
Manifestation is movement. Ask yourself, what one small action can I take today that brings this intention closer to life? Then do it. Trust that even the smallest step is a declaration of faith.
4. Anchor the Energy
At 11:11 AM or 11:11 PM, take a few deep breaths, place your hand on your heart, and say your intention aloud. Imagine the energy rippling outward, aligning you with every experience that matches your truth.
Light a candle in your favorite color (maybe that beautiful Deep Violet that’s part of my brand palette 💜) to represent your soul’s fire.
What the 11/11 Portal Means for You
This 11/11 is your reminder that growth doesn’t always come from doing more — sometimes it comes from letting go, trusting more deeply, and stepping boldly into visibility.
If you’ve been holding yourself back from sharing your gifts or doubting your path, this portal whispers: It’s time.
Let Leo’s fire reignite your confidence. Let the Moon’s wisdom show you what needs to be released. Let the energy of 11/11 remind you that alignment, not effort, is what brings your manifestations to life.
The portal is open. Step through with courage, love, and heart.
We’ve all had those moments when we question who we are and what our purpose is. Sometimes, life humbles us in ways that force us to shed old identities and step into something new. One of the most surprising teachers of this truth is none other than Buzz Lightyear. Across the Toy Story films, Buzz’s journey from delusional Space Ranger to intuitive leader beautifully mirrors the evolution we all experience — from believing we have to be something to realizing we already are someone.
When we first meet Buzz Lightyear in Toy Story, he’s convinced of one thing: he’s a Space Ranger on an intergalactic mission to protect the galaxy from the Evil Emperor Zurg. His confidence is unshakable—until reality hits. Buzz discovers that he’s not, in fact, a Space Ranger… but a toy. This revelation shatters his sense of identity. For a while, he spirals into self-pity and confusion. But like so many of us, Buzz eventually finds a way forward. He learns that his value doesn’t come from what he thought he was, but from who he is—a loyal friend with a brave heart.
By the time we get to Toy Story 2, Buzz has grown comfortable in his new skin. He’s found belonging among his friends and a purpose in their shared adventures. But as life often does, his past resurfaces—literally, in the form of a delusional new Buzz who still believes he’s a Space Ranger. This confrontation symbolizes how old versions of ourselves can threaten the peace we’ve worked so hard to build. Yet, Buzz doesn’t crumble this time. Instead, he uses his newfound wisdom, humility, and connection with his friends to overcome his past once and for all.
Then comes Toy Story 3, and Buzz has stepped fully into his leadership. With Woody gone, he becomes the steady hand and guiding voice for the group. His evolution from individual hero to collective leader shows just how much he’s matured. He no longer needs to prove himself—he simply is himself. And in that authenticity, he inspires others to trust him.
Finally, in Toy Story 4, we see a quieter kind of strength in Buzz. He’s confident and capable, but this time his greatest challenge isn’t external—it’s internal. Throughout the film, Buzz learns to listen to his inner voice—literally and metaphorically. His catchphrase, “To infinity and beyond,” takes on new meaning as he learns that true growth doesn’t always mean leaping outward into the universe… sometimes it means journeying inward. By trusting his intuition, he once again saves his friends—not through force, but through faith in himself.
Buzz’s evolution mirrors our own human journey. We all begin with a belief in who we think we are. Then life challenges that identity, forcing us to confront and release what no longer fits. We rebuild, rediscover, and redefine ourselves through connection, courage, and curiosity. Over time, we learn that the greatest adventure isn’t out there in the stars—it’s within.
Like Buzz, we’re all learning to let go of old versions of ourselves, embrace growth, and trust that quiet, inner voice that always knows the way.
To infinity and beyond… and inward. 🚀💫
Today, while posting my most recent blog across social media, I took a few moments to scroll. And what I saw honestly blew me away.
Post after post promised “abundance,” “good fortune,” or “miracles coming your way.” And below each one were hundreds — sometimes thousands — of comments filled with “I claim it!” or “So it is!”
Don’t get me wrong, I love a good manifestation vibe. But this realization hit me hard:
We have faith that liking a post or typing “I claim it” will change our lives…
but we don’t have that same faith in ourselves.
but we don’t have that same faith in ourselves.
We’re putting our belief outside of us — in algorithms, in luck, in someone else’s message — instead of placing it where it truly belongs: inside.
The truth is:
You don’t need to comment “I claim it.”
You don’t need to wait for the universe to notice your like.
You simply need to remember your power — and activate it intentionally.
You don’t need to wait for the universe to notice your like.
You simply need to remember your power — and activate it intentionally.
So if you’ve caught yourself recently “claiming” your blessings during a late-night scroll, don’t feel bad. We all crave connection, hope, and a little magic. But here’s your gentle wake-up call: it’s time to stop claiming and start creating.
How to Step Into Your Power (No Likes Necessary)
Here are five steps to help you shift from passive “claiming” to active creating — and start manifesting real change from within.
1. Pause the Scroll
The next time you feel that impulse to “claim it,” take a deep breath instead.
Ask yourself: What is this post really awakening in me?
Is it desire, hope, envy, longing? Whatever it is, it’s showing you where your soul is ready to grow.
Ask yourself: What is this post really awakening in me?
Is it desire, hope, envy, longing? Whatever it is, it’s showing you where your soul is ready to grow.
2. Name What You Truly Want
Don’t just claim what someone else posts. Get specific about your dream.
What does abundance, love, or peace look like for you?
Write it down. The moment you define it, you begin to give it form — that’s where creation starts.
What does abundance, love, or peace look like for you?
Write it down. The moment you define it, you begin to give it form — that’s where creation starts.
3. Believe in Your Own Power
Instead of saying “I claim it,” try saying:
“I create it. I am capable. I am ready.”
This tiny shift in language moves you from wishful thinking to energetic alignment. You’re no longer waiting — you’re participating.
This tiny shift in language moves you from wishful thinking to energetic alignment. You’re no longer waiting — you’re participating.
4. Take One Aligned Action
Manifestation is momentum. Do one small thing today that supports your intention.
If you’re claiming abundance, look at your finances with clarity.
If you’re claiming love, show love — to yourself or someone else.
If you’re claiming peace, create a moment of quiet.
Every action says to the Universe, “I’m serious about this.”
If you’re claiming abundance, look at your finances with clarity.
If you’re claiming love, show love — to yourself or someone else.
If you’re claiming peace, create a moment of quiet.
Every action says to the Universe, “I’m serious about this.”
5. Trust the Timing, but Keep Moving
Trust doesn’t mean sitting still — it means moving in faith.
When you keep showing up with consistency and self-belief, the universe meets you halfway. Your “claim” becomes your creation because your energy, thoughts, and actions are aligned.
When you keep showing up with consistency and self-belief, the universe meets you halfway. Your “claim” becomes your creation because your energy, thoughts, and actions are aligned.
Final Thoughts
You don’t need to chase every post that promises blessings.
You are the blessing.
You are the blessing.
So the next time you see one of those “Claim it!” posts, take it as a reminder — not to type in the comments, but to tune in to your own magic.
Because the real power to change your life isn’t found in your feed…
It’s found in you.
As I write this, I’m on my way to Pilates — a little frustrated, because I like to be 15 minutes early and I’m only going to be six minutes early today.
Why? Because I didn’t leave my house when I should have.
It’s not like I was doing nothing — I was finishing up things around the house, being “productive.” (Okay… I might’ve been slacking off a little before that.) But still, I left later than I intended.
Now that I’m on the road, I’m hitting every single red light. I’m stuck behind slow drivers. I’m waiting for someone to make a left-hand turn. And all of it is testing my patience.
In that moment, I reminded myself:
“I’ll get to Pilates at the exact time I’m meant to get there. The Universe knows what it’s doing.”
And while that’s true, it doesn’t change the fact that I am the one who left the house late.
That’s the dance we’re all trying to learn — the balance between trusting the Universe’s perfect timing and taking personal responsibility for our part in the process.
Yes, the Universe is magical in its synchronicities, divine timing, and perfect orchestration. But that doesn’t mean we get to sit back and wait for things to happen. Manifestation isn’t passive.
Your actions, your mindset, and your energy are what tell the Universe what you truly want.
Not just your affirmations.
Not just your vision board.
Not just your affirmations.
Not just your vision board.
So ask yourself:
Are your affirmations, your vision boards, your thoughts, and your actions all in alignment with what you say you want?
Or are you telling the Universe one thing while acting as if you want something else?
Or are you telling the Universe one thing while acting as if you want something else?
Because if you’re asking for abundance but acting out of scarcity…
If you’re affirming love but closing yourself off emotionally…
If you’re visualizing success but procrastinating on the steps that would create it…
Then your energy is sending mixed messages.
If you’re visualizing success but procrastinating on the steps that would create it…
Then your energy is sending mixed messages.
Check your actions at the door.
Play an active role in your own manifestations.
And then — once you’ve done your part — trust the Universe’s timing.
And then — once you’ve done your part — trust the Universe’s timing.
Manifestation isn’t about forcing outcomes or creating something out of nothing. It’s about raising your vibration to match the frequency of what you desire.
Your vibration — the combination of your thoughts, your emotions, and your actions — is what the Universe listens to when it orchestrates your path.
So today, take responsibility for your energy. Move with intention.
And know that once you’re in alignment, the Universe will handle the timing.
And know that once you’re in alignment, the Universe will handle the timing.
